The Unveiled Mystic: the Journey Behind the Journey

I do not remember asking to be a mystic, it just happened.  

You would not think anything was very different about me should you meet me, only, perhaps, that I am a completely approachable, sincere, and kind person.  I always have loved nature, animals, children and have had a very real and intimate relationship with God for as long as I can remember. 

I was raised in a "normal" American fashion: the eldest of three daughters brought up in the mid-west to educated middle-class parents who loved each other, had married young and who stayed married to each other their entire lives.  We were a God-fearing, God-loving family.  We ate meat, potatoes and two vegetables every dinner and had an apple orchard in our back yard.  I walked to elementary school.  My mother baked loaves of bread and made cookies for our family as well as worked part-time.  My father worked hard and steadily throughout my formative years and he celebrated each Friday night, loving to be home with his family for the weekend and enlisting us girls to help him with the yard-work. We were raised to be good stewards and responsible people.

There was no alcohol in our house; there were no firearms.  We attended church every week as well as Sunday School and Wednesday night services.  I went to church camp every summer from third-grade through college and chose to attend a Christian Liberal Arts college my freshman and sophomore years.  I never drank or did drugs while I was in school; instead, I did a LOT of babysitting, had a paper-route, worked at the library and then as a waitress as soon as I turned 16 and was heavily involved in our community youth orchestra, symphonic band, piano lessons and choirs.  We always had a dog. 

My life growing up was all very normal and idyllic.  I never asked for much more than what I was given, though I always knew that there was more: I had a very idealized concept of romance, well before I was even a teenager.  This was to the detriment of my relationship with my parents, for I sought my Beloved with the same aplomb and alacrity as Aurora in Sleeping Beauty, once upon a dream. (Fairy tales, fantasy and romance always have intrigued me.)

I was 17 years old when I had my first mystical experience.  While my parents and sisters were inside together watching a movie, I was out in the backyard near one of the pear trees, heartbroken over my love gone lost, praying without ceasing and gazing up into the clear night, the star-studded sky.  Fat tears were rolling down my cheeks as I asked God "Why??" over and over again, confused, distraught and ever so sad.  It was then that I saw a shooting star streak across the heavens and was overcome with the very real presence of the Divine- so much so that I was completely compelled to lay prostrate, face down on the dewy grass, unable to look up.  I was overcome with a great sense of calm, of peace, of love and the very real reassurance that I was taken care of.  My sadness dissipated; I arose, dried my eyes and went back into the house with such awe, such thankfulness in my heart.  Never again could I dare doubt the reality of God after that.

Time proceeded, my love was found and lost once more, this time *I* was the one who ran away.  For 20 years I lived an alternative life without him present.  I married someone else, I had a child; I divorced and married again and divorced again... I threw myself into the world: my careers, parenting, hobbies all became priorities above my spiritual life.  I stopped hanging around God-loving people.  I ceased praying.  I became "practical" and put my job before my spirituality, my spouses before myself.  I ensconced myself with worldly pursuits and pleasures and ended up being taken advantage of by the world, chewed up and spit out.  I was angry, I was forlorn, I was physically sick, emotionally spent and spiritually distraught.

But something else happened, too.  Just as I had gotten to the point of exhaustion, of total depletion and had given up on being able to work full-time due to an array of illness and dis-ease, God fetched me once more back into the embrace of Love- this time with a vision.

I'm not sure what came over me, but I had this very strong sense to go into the attic and dig out from the recesses a rock that I'd obtained 15+ years ago from a book/jewelry/gemstone mining store I visited long ago when I first moved to Asheville, NC called the Silver Armadillo.  It was a lovely piece of fluorite, raw and uncut in its cubical blue-purple formation with tiny white calcification cubes like stars studding some sides.  My intuition was strong and I felt to go to the window of my room and gaze outside, place the crystal on my forehead and then close my eyes.  I felt a tingly-burning sensation where the stone touched my flesh and was given a scenario in my mind's eye of people walking around, minding their own affairs, living their lives as usual while I saw a doorway, a window open in the sky that revealed a blazing bright Eye.  No one else seemed to notice it whatsoever, but I was riveted, captured by it's gaze, locked into it's sight with my own and then these words came pouring into me over and over again, "I am Holy Thine.  I am Holy Thine.  I am Holy Thine."

Being so entranced by this vision, I blinked open my eyes and immediately drew out the image I had seen onto paper so I would have some tangible reminder of the indelible impression it left within me.  I drew the sun-like radiant Eye in the open doorway in the sky, I drew a man who was not paying attention and looking elsewhere, I drew myself as a black shaded silhouette with a lightness inside.  Since that time, I've been gifted with more visions- all of which have left me with such deep feelings of awe and gratitude, with amazement and humility.  None of them have been of death or destruction or the end of the world.  All of them have been awesome, intriguing and inspiring, very real reminders that we are much more than what we seem. 

My third eye (and fourth eye!) have been opened and I feel energies throughout my body.  I can read the human heart and recognize Twin Flames almost as soon as I meet them.  Each person that comes into my life is on purpose, our meeting a part of the Grand Design, and I am able to see more than I ever even dreamed or fantasized was possible.  I am able to glimpse into the akashic records and view past and/or parallel lives.  (This has been an incredibly handy sanity saver when I've wondered why in the world have certain people come into my life and why are the dynamics so weird!!)  I am continuing to hone my spiritual gifts and am discovering more.

For me, keeping a journal and writing has been an invaluable part of this journey into the mystical realms.  Sometimes my writing comes so fluidly and so effortlessly that I know it is coming through me.  Some of my most profound poems have come in 30-45 minutes without any pressure and I know that I am but a co-creative and collaborative scribe taking Spirit's notes and adding my own flavor to these eternal messages of the all-empowering unity of love.

I will remind you that I was not at all a crystal-loving hippie child, or a mystical seeker.  I was not a new-age spiritualist or anything of the sort when these things started to occur for me.  I was raised with Christianity and science, two belief systems that poo-poo this type of reality with chagrin!!  I merely prayed and kept myself open to listening and following my intuition.  I understand that many people have spent their entire lives wishing and seeking these sort of experiences, and I must tell you- when your spirit is ready, and when the timing is most prime for everyone to benefit, these mystical experiences will find you. 

In the meanwhile, pray- ask to be led and to be guided- ask for assistance; keep yourself open and available to your intuition, for this is your guidance into stepping into what is greater than what we seem, and never cease your own personal quest for your spiritual relationship with our eternal Source. 

In the end, it's all about Love: love for Self, reverence for each other, for our world and for the Divine.

Many blessings to you on this most profound and provocative journey! Keep always faith, love and hope in your heart.
Namaste


 

A Letter of Universal Love

Beloved,

Greetings and Salutations!  I hope that this letter finds you well.  Let me remind you how very much you are loved and treasured, how you are honored and protected every moment of your beautiful life!  At times it is challenging to see (and therefore understand) why things seem to be the way they are, but I assure you: nothing is by chance.

It often takes the distance of time to see things from an alternate perspective as the miasma of our close proximity may distort the whole picture.  We are, each of us, part of a magnificent Grand Design - carefully orchestrated by a most benevolent Universe.  Some call this Benevolent Universe God.  Some call it Love.  Whatever you wish to name it, it is our Source.  From this everything is born and to this everything returns.

We are the Universe tasting itself, experimenting, expanding, uncovering and rediscovering.  We have been all things to each other - victims and saviors, the abused and the oppressors - lifetimes of choosing various roles to play, expanding our awareness and our appreciation for ourselves and each reflection of Ourself in others.

At times you may wonder "Why?"  Take these moments to reflect before you react.  Remember that in each moment you are given the opportunity to chose "What If...."  and do not be afraid to embark upon the road less traveled, to seek the adventures yet untold, to live the mysteries yet untapped.  

Use the past as a compass to remind you where you have been, and chose your Now based on what you understand of your own, beautiful truth.  

Never fear, Beloved, for each step you take is the right one: it adds to the flavor and diversity of our existence, to the ever unfolding knowledge of what is possible and becomes the greatest gift to oneself and to the All that Is.

Ennobled Woman

It Is Time To Reclaim Your Sovereign Divinity

Ennobled Woman, remember who you are.  

For too long have you allowed yourself to be devalued, under appreciated and disrespected.  For too long have you allowed yourself to be treated like a slave, a prostitute, a piece of property to be adorned and not adored.  Ennobled Woman, remember who you are.

You are the child bearers, the life-givers, the divine carriers of the Sacred Feminine Flame.  Ennobled Woman, rise up and model to our daughters the strength inherent within you.  Ennobled Woman, rise up and teach our sons that we are to be valued and respected.  Ennobled Woman, remember who you are.

Ennobled Woman, you are valuable and worthy of respect.  Treat your body well, pamper yourself and allow yourself to be appreciated for the divinity within you, for the sacred seeds of life that you carry each month. Ennobled Woman, remember who you are.  Ennobled Woman, do not give yourself away!  Remember your mystique, the undercurrent of your power.  Ennobled Woman, reclaim your Sovereign Divinity, for it is your birthright.  Ennobled Woman, remember who you are!

The Valuable Lessons Twin Flames Bring

Not everyone will relate to Twin Flame information in particular at this moment in time, though everyone will be able to relate to the benefits of what Twin Flames can and do bring to our world.
Twin Flames have an immense capacity to love.  These particular pairs of souls also have the innate ability to keenly experience each other beyond what one could see and feel and comprehend with any other person, because in Essence Twin Flames are each other.  It is a beautiful and unique method for us to start to really LIVE the reality of understanding what it is to be as One with another.  The connection between a pair of Twin Flames is more intimate and intense than any other experience of relating to another.  It truly is Divine.

Twin Flame couples can sense the other person's emotions and feelings, even hear their thoughts and sometimes taste/smell what the other is experiencing.  It is a very raw and very vulnerable place to be because you cannot hide anything from your Twin Flame.  Each energetic nuance is felt by the other, from the sweetest tendered compassion to the anguish of feeling controlled or abandoned. 

Twin Flame connections are painful, intense, exhilarating, and precious.  The Twin Flame journey is a purposefully Designed method for re-calibrating one's self into the wholeness that truly is our state of being.  Feeling insecure or unworthy?  Don't worry, your Twin Flame will bring that right out so you're forced to deal with it.  Feeling jealous?  Impatient?  Hedonistic?  Shameful?  Angry?  Whichever mis-alignments are present will all come out in heightened states when Twin Flames are together.  This braised awareness brings the soul into ultimate alignment because flaws and wounds are unmasked and illuminated, then are able to be noticed in perfect poignancy to be repaired and healed. 

The means of a Twin Flame connection facilitates the intimate knowing, then conscious ridding of all the non-loving attributes that have been layered upon us throughout our lives.  It is definitely a blessing and those Twin Flames that are growing more aware of each other are truly able to maneuver through this process, as incredible and difficult as it may seem.

One of the goals for awakening and illuminated Twin Flames today is to become guiding factors for how humanity is evolving.  Twin Flames are here to help set the new paradigms of how we relate to one another.  Not only are more Twins waking up and discovering this somewhat confusing, truly adventurous and often harrowing wild ride, but also more Twin Flame children are being born into the world every day.  Humanity is evolving.  We are ascending together.  We are all connected, and we must help each other with this process.  We are beginning to relate to one another on these very subtle, very intimate energetic levels of complete, unadulterated connection.  It is beneficial for Twin Flames going through the various physical, emotional, mental and spiritual changes to openly share their experiences so that others may benefit when their time of unraveling comes.

Remember to be easy on yourself and each other.  Our Source is Love.  If you allow it, the world will make you hard and brittle, for it wants you to be broken and separated from the birthright of your Divinity.  If you allow it, Love will nourish you back into the supple strength of your superior self, for it is of what we are all made. 

On Being Multi-Dimensional

To understand and employ the mastery of peace and the true power of our Divine Birthright is to go within.  Through meditation and prayer, self-reflection and yielding to the Divine, one will discover they are a living multi-verse.  One cannot find this passage outside of one’s self.  

One may find themselves internally guided in their earnest seeking: intuition assists in prying open what is already inside and available.  Pieces of outside information are touchstones that symbolize awareness and growth, metaphorical cairns for the journey, triggers of remembrance; it is lovely and affirming to receive these “wisdom crackers,” but it is imperative to understand and accept that all one needs to know is already held within them.  Be not dissuaded with the time comes for one’s crutches to be removed, for that is when one’s faith is able to be fully employed, that is when the power of Divine Love can be made manifest and that is when miracles occur.

Meditative Exercise: Becoming the Divine Vessel

To transcend limited viewpoint is to accept one’s multi-dimensional being.  In the spheres of multi-dimensionality, one must ascend one’s perspective to be all-inclusive.   

“I Am yonder, I Am hither, hither and yon I Be.”

Utilize this statement when transcending the physical and feel one’s self rooting both into the earth and opening up into the heavens.  This is the body as a vessel for the flow of the Divine.  From this place, one may be opened for guidance from Divine Love, life-force eternal, the Essence of Being that is All.

One may feel the rise and swirl of energy dancing through one’s body as the vessel becomes activated, aroused in spirit and played like an instrument in harmony with the All that Is.   

Seat Your Power

It is extremely tempting to listen to the world.  (Everybody else is doing it, right? And nothing’s wrong with…. Wait. Hmmm…) To listen to the world is to allow one’s self to be misdirected.  Too often focus on the Divine Goal is diverted by the smoke and mirrors of wordly fears and shadowy lures of false advertising.  These are merely dizzying distractions to keep one off-center, out of alignment with one’s true Self, and too distracted to realize one’s eternal power of multi-dimensional Being.  

The evolution of the soul is inevitable through trial, error and (un)learning, though can be speedily progressed through practiced, consistent consciousness.  One eventually finds one’s self reclosed from those inane, worldly demands, finding often solitude a more suitable companion for reverence and reflection than anything or anyone presenting distraction from that focus.  It is here one may lose one’s self-centered, limited sight from Below to gain in addition the more magnificent view of the Grand Design from Above.  But to live as a recluse, a hermetic prophet, will not ground and bring that known Heaven to Earth.  Esoteric Guides, Starseed Lovers, Mystics and Prophets are now called forth to grasp the Truth and bring it to the physical by embodying that which is poetically praised and proselytized.  

Internalize the Eternal and find All Within.

Shadows of Self

Shadows of self, those unsightly parts
of self-made lies and broken hearts
you linger behind me,
you stand right beside me,
you rattle my brain with poisonous darts.

You cause me to doubt; you haunt all my dreams;
you make me so crazy; you make my soul scream.
You feed all my fears like a bear in a cage
baiting my anger, fueling my rage.

You taunt me with illusory treasures of gold,
You tease me with pleasures of beauty untold.
As I raise my hand, while I reach for my share,
I’m shackled by shadows that always are there.

What will drive these shadows away?
What will keep the Hell Hounds at bay?
What will banish these demons of mine?
What will give me peace sublime?

Oh shadows of doubt, of loathing despair,
why do you haunt me, why do you care
to keep me down and low and dirty
to snipe my plans, feeling so unworthy?

What will disperse these shadows I have?
What keeps me from going stark raving mad?

Do shadows disperse when Faith is employed?
Do I dare to hope to be overjoyed!?

Will I seize on a dream that I once thought was lost?
Will I do what I love no matter the cost?

Will I rise to heed my heart when it’s calling?
Will I see what I do that’s so very appalling?

What will I choose when the choices present?
Do I dare declare my soul’s intent?

If I followed my dreams, if I stood in my power,
If I claimed all of that, would you follow or cower?

Face your fears, your shadows, your demons,
Learn who you are and what is so needed
to heal what is shattered and broken and buried,
to shrug off all those burdens you’ve carried.